That phone call shocked me. I was speechless and numb. Someone over the phone was telling “Your friend Suyog is no more”. I couldn’t recollect back my senses and words didn’t flow out of my mouth. For a minute, I felt like the world had gone darker, the sun had stopped shining and I was like-in-between a dense forest with no light, sound and people. When my neurons sent signals to my brain, I uttered a phrase to myself “R.I.P Suyog”. I didn’t even bother myself to ask the cause of death at that agonizing moment.
As soon as I ended up with that phone conversation, I got another call from my friend stating that he poisoned himself to death. I was asked by some of my friends whether I was joining them to his home and I was like- how could I deny!! I immediately joined my friends and we reached to his home at once. My emotions knew know boundary. My eyes were full of tears and my heart was heavy as if I was carrying thousands of elephants within me. I couldn’t let my emotions down there, as I was there to provide them with the sympathy but I had to restrict my feelings there.
His mother’s face-it was worn out with tears and when I looked at her, my eyes were wet. Perhaps God only knows to what extent she was suffering at this moment.
His mother couldn’t even utter a word to us.How could a mother!
But his father shared us that he committed suicide the previous night. He shared us about dreams he had for his lovely son Suyog and those words were flowing within us as summer wind. He suggested us not to repeat the same mistake as Suyog did because no parents could tolerate their children’s death. He assured us saying that we were Suyog for him but the irony was-we could never turn ourselves into Suyog. Suyog was the only Suyog for them.
SUICIDE is a crime for humanity. All those who provoke suicide are criminals. But we can’t be apart from the fact that our nature i.e. human emotions are mainly responsible to provoke those feelings among ourselves. When it comes so strong to us, there appears a mirage that suicide is the only ultimate solution. Why did Suyog not think of his parents? How could he be so rude not even thinking about the tears and those thunderstorms of agony that would encircle his family, friends and relatives?
Suicide has been reported to be common among us, the teenagers. The most common concept for suicide as reported is illiteracy,poverty,failure in life, love and pressure from family,society,college and so on.
Dear everyone, let us not trouble ourselves by thinking about suicidal feelings. Being in this age of thunder and storm, we are to share our problems or give a platform to our problems among our family, friends or near ones, as there is always a solution to every problem.
Today Suyog is no more among us. We can’t bring him back. But let us realize about the loss his mother has to undergo who always kept him near her heart and nurtured him till this age (approx. 17), his dad has to suffer who had shared his dreams for Suyog, His friends has to bear the unbearable loss as his company was dear to everyone and to the nation which has lost a great talent. Let everyone be sensitive to this word suicide and act according to the psychology of teenagers so that these sorts of accidents can halt over.
We, the Suyog for Our parents, must realize sorrows and agonies that our parents would undergo…..besides, we are to give platforms to our problems rather that to be away from life. Let us be strong.
FINALLY, I PRAY TO GOD THAT HIS DEPARTED SOUL FIND A PLACE IN HEAVEN AND MY CONDOLENCES AND SUPPORT ARE WITH ALL OF US WHO ARE ENGRAVED BY THE LOSS WE HAD TO SUFFER. R.I.P SUYOG.
P.S. This is a blog that i wanted to share and was written three years back during my high school.
Dr.Yagya Prasad Timalsina 