अ.. हो!!! त्यहि एक सर्को ….. सायद एक वर्ष अघि बाबाले झापड हान्दा तानेको थियो….त्यो एक सर्को ! त्यो पनि तल्लो घरको SLC फेल हर्केसङ्ग ! आज हर्के र उ संगै छन् … संगै… मृत्युसैयामा!!! डाक्टर साबहरु उसलाई एड्स लग्यो भन्दै थिए!
एक वर्ष अघिको त्यो चुरोट…..मात्र एक सर्को काफी भयो उसलाई! आनन्द आको थ्यो रे उसलाई तेतिबेला!! त्यसपछि उसले गाजा, चरेस, ब्राउन सुगर, अनि के के अरु पनि तान्यो रे! ३ महिनाअघि असनको गल्लिमा देख्या थिए उनीहरुलाई! वरिपरि सुइका ठुटा थिए! एक हातबाट रगत बग्दै थियो भने अर्को हात सुन्निएको थियो उसको! बिहोस थिए दुवै जना …. त्यो पनि जवानीको २२औ वर्ष मा!!
सायद त्यो सुइमा HIV थियो होला…. कि बाबाको त्यो झापडमा HIV थियो कतै??
कतै उसको मानसिकता र अज्ञानतामा त HIV थिएन???? कतै हर्केले दिएको पहिलो सर्को चुरोट मा त HIV थिएन?? असन को गल्लीमा लाचार छोडेर हिडेको मैले, कि मेरो ब्यबहारमा HIV थियो?? एक्लै हिडेकी नानीलाई समेत जिस्काउन नछोड्ने पोसाकमै भाएको प्रहरीको लापरबाहीमा त HIV थिएन नि है? कि हाम्रो लाचार एवम निस्फिक्री समाजमा HIV थियो? खोइ, कहाँ थियो त HIV ???
हिजो तिमीले हात काट्यौ सुघौली सन्धि भन्दै
आज फेरी बलात्कृत गर्यौ बिदेशी नोट गन्दै
अस्तिदेखि छोरि-चेली भारत बम्बई लागि बेच्यौ
अहिले त म आमालाई अन्तरास्ट्रिय समाजमा कुल्च्य़ौ
घरिघरि छिमेकीले मेरो बष्यस्थल समात्दा नि
तिम्रो मुटु, अंग , शरीर ; किन सिरिङ्ग नभएको कुन्नि ?
हिजो बिजुलीको बहाना गरि अश्रुधारा पनि बेच्यौ
त्यो आशुलाई रोक लगाउने मेरो बाध पनि बेच्यौ
सुन्दै छु कि छोरा बुद्दलाई पनि बेच्दै छौ रे !
मेरो मुटु सगरमाथालाइ अर्कैतिर धड्काउने प्रयाश गर्दै छौ रे !
सार्भोभौमिकता र स्वाधिनता दमन भयो भन्दै छन् मेरा छिमेकि
अभा तिमि मेरो दासी बन भन्दै छन् है मेरा छिमेकि !
इतिहास त कहिल्यै पल्टाउने चेष्टा भयन तिमीमा
म लुटिदै गय रोक्ने सामर्थ्य भयन तिमीमा
उल्टै आजकल त तिमि उतैतिर ढल्किदै पो छौ रे!
मलाई बेच्न अझै तिमि कसिदै पो छौ अरे!
छोरा पृथ्वीनारायण रुदै छ आज मेरो काखमा
फेरी जन्माउ आमा म बचाउचू तिम्रो महिमा
काट्छु सबै दरिद्रकताका ति भोकाप्यासीलाइ
भन्छ, आच पनि आउन दिन्न त्म्रो गरिमालाई
अमरसिंह पनि जन्म देउ आमा भन्दै छ आज फेरी
खुड़ाको धार मेटाउनेछु तिम्रो अस्मिताको लागि
अतिक्रमण र हस्तछेपलाइ निस्क्रिय पार्छु आमा
लालची ति दाजुभाई, काकालाइ नि काट्छु आमा
नामर्दहरु धेरै नजन्माउ आमा म आउछु भन्छ भक्ति
दरिद्रहरु पो जन्मिन थाले अभा म आउछु भन्छ बलभद्र
चिर्छु आमा, मार्छु आमा, मलाई जन्म देउ भन्छन
देशकै लागि मर्नै परे त्यॊ काखमा फेरी आउछु भन्छन
अब त उठ! मेरा छोराछोरी हो, मेरा सन्तति!
फेरी पनि नबेच मलाई भुलिदेउ बिदेशी गन्ति
म छु र पो तिमि छौ, किन बुज्दैनौ यो कुरा?
म टूक्रिदै छु, तडःपिदै छु, किन रोक्दैनौ यो व्यथा?
लड अब आफ्नै लागि; मेरो अस्तित्वको लागि
मार्नु परे मेरा छोरा मारी हाल आजै देखि
बिदेशीको रख्य़ल मलाई बन्न नदेउ तिमि
मर्छु बरु बिष खाई नमार मलाई घरि घरि!!
That phone call shocked me. I was turned speechless and numb. Someone over the phone was telling “Your friend Suyog is no more”. I couldn’t recollect back my senses and the words didn’t flow out of my mouth. For a minute, I felt like the world had gone darker, the sun had stopped shining and I was like in between the dense forest with no light, sound and people. When the neurons sent the signals to my brain, I uttered a phrase to myself “R.I.P Suyog”. I didn’t even bother myself to ask the cause of death at that agonizing moment.
As soon as I ended up with that phone conversation, I got another call from my friend stating that he poisoned himself to die. I was asked by some of my friends whether I am joining them to his home and it was like how could I deny!! I immediately joined my friends and we reached to his home at once. My emotions knew know boundary. My eyes were full of tears and my heart was heavy as if I was carrying thousands of elephants in me. I couldn’t overflow my emotions there, as I was there to provide them with the sympathy and I had to restrict my feelings there.
His mother’s face, it was worn out with the tears and when I looked at her, my eyes went wet. Perhaps God only knows to what extent she is suffering at this moment. His mother couldn’t even utter a word to us. But his father shared us that he committed suicide the previous night. He shared us the dreams he had for his lovely son Suyog and those words were flowing within us as summer wind. He suggested us not to repeat the same mistake as Suyog did because no parents can tolerate their children’s death. He assured us saying that we were suyog for him but the irony was we couldn’t turn ourselves into Suyog. Suyog was the only Suyog for them.
SUICIDE is a crime for humanity. All those who provoke suicide are criminals. But we can’t be apart from the fact that our nature i.e. human emotions are mainly responsible to provoke those feelings among ourselves. When it comes so strong to us, there appears a mirage that only suicide is the ultimate solution. Why did Suyog not think of his parents? How could he be so rude not even thinking about the tears and those thunderstorms of agony would encircle his family, friends and relatives? Suicide has been reported to be common among us, the teenagers. The most common concept for suicide as reported is itteracy,poverty,failure in life, love and pressure from family,society,college and so on.
Dear everyone let us not trouble ourselves by thinking about the suicidal feelings. Being in this age of thunder and storm, we are to share our problems or give a platform to our problems among our family, friends or near ones, as there is always a solution to every problem.
Today Suyog is no more among us. We can’t bring him back. But let us realize about the loss his mother has to undergo who always kept him near her heart and nurtured him till this age (approx. 17), his dad has to suffer who had shared his dreams for Suyog, His friends has to bear the unbearable loss as his company was dear to everyone and to the nation which has lost a great talent. Let everyone be sensitive to this word suicide and act according to the psychology of teenagers so that these sorts of accidents can halt over.
We, the Suyog for Our parents must realize the pains that our parents would undergo…..besides, we are to give platforms to our problems rather that to be away from life. Let us be strong.
FINALLY, I PRAY TO GOD HIS SOUL FIND A PLACE IN HEAVEN AND MY CONDOLENCES AND SUPPORT ARE WITH ALL OF US WHO ARE ENGRAVED BY THE LOSS WE HAD TO SUFFER. R.I.P SUYOG.
P.S. This is a blog that i wanted to share and was written three years back during my high school.
The black day: APRIL 25, 2015. Nepal had been traumatized by the massive earthquake measuring 7.8 on Richter scale with epicenter at Gorkha, Western Nepal; followed by three major aftershocks measuring 6.6R on April 25,2015 (Gorkha) , 6.9 R on April 26,2015 (Sindhupalchowk) and 6.8 R on May 12, 2015 (Dolakha/Sindhupalchowk) and thousands on minor aftershocks. This cruelty of nature led to deaths tolling over 8600 and injuries banging on to over 21,000. The movement of Indian and Tibetan plates destroyed hundreds of thousands of houses rendering millions homeless and foodless too. Spare the financial loss which is insurmountable.
Every single Nepalese were equally tormented by this disaster and every single soul ached with pain , the pain which can’t even be overcome by the multiple doses of morphine. The whole nation was drenched in tears and every single human began to rise to help those in need. Bound by nationality and unified by Love, we chose to help. Like thousands, I too couldn’t settle my heart and set off to heal the wounds of the victims.
As a medical student, I had the benefit of my stethoscope and my white coat. With the collection of youths from Jhaukhel, bhaktapur, where I live in, we made our banners stating ‘HELP THE NEEDY” and gathered to raise funds around our locality. Special thanks to Roshan Shrestha, Ravi Thapa Magar, Sachin Hamal and Amrit Hamal. Day one collection amounted to almost Nrs. 20,000 and subsequent collections were recorded in tens of thousands. The enthusiasm and zeal of youths can make things easier and more accessible. We bought the dry foods ( biscuits, noodles, dalmot), water purifiers, Oral Rehydration Solution, masks, bleaching powder, water, phenyl and other stuffs with the collected funds and went on a survey at Dahal Gaun, Changunarayan municipality. The survey included the condition of the house, casualty, injuries , sanitation, family members and economic status( was assessed with the help of local youths). the materials were distributed as per the need assessment done in the survey.
Thanks to Reach Out World Wide (ROWW), a non-profit organization currently run by Cody Walker (Actor of fast and furious 7 and brother to the great actor late Paul Walker) for their health camps at the same place and many places like Kattike bhanjyang, Dunwar and Dhande, Sindhupalchowk. We are grateful for their help and it was a good coordination with them. Special thanks to Cody Walker, Derrick Bean, Dr. Gale, Craige de Meillon, Dave Marquez, jeffrey, Christian Urza, Matt Cafey,Tim Okimura, Cammie E. Cooley and Sunil Chhetri. One of the best American Relief Team I ever came through.
Our next destination was Pokhrel Gaun, Pikhel ,Bhaktapur. The place had diarrheal outbreak and on a preliminary survey, I found out dozens of injured and sick. they also demanded water along with water purifier. With the help of Red Cross, we took some doctors to the place and conducted our health camp. we also conducted the water distribution in the whole village. They blessed us for our help and it made us ecstatic. We cleaned the locality of the place where we visited and provided them with the bleaching powder and phenyl. Basic health awareness and k knowledge of Sanitation was also delivered in every houses we stepped in.
Kathmandu Medical College, the place where I study has been doing the health camps to help the victims over various different places. But what makes me much proud is the ebullient nature of my batch mate Kathmandu medical college batch 16. We, the 16th Batch gathered around raising funds crossing over NRS.2,00,0000, made family packs and distributed the relief materials to relief materials to places like Gorkha, Balmandir, Ishangunarayan. Every single medical student are helping their way out to the victims on behalf of KMCTH batch 16.
Lately , AIESEC is running its project called “Junkiri” focusing the children. It basically helps children to get off the fear of earthquake psychologically with their involvement in games, arts, crafts and so on. The programme has been successfully conducted at Sankhu and Lapse. it was a great opportunity to be involved in this project. Acknowledgements to AIESEC and Roshan Shrestha.
This was the account of the things we did on our own effort. Though we couldn’t cover every needy people, all we did was making a difference to few lives we touched. We felt their pain as ours and walked off to relieve few of their troubles.
Nepalese, the bravest of the brave, let us unite together and help every needy in whatever way we can. Let us touch the broken hearts and assure their own company, Egos apart, let us make a dent in this universe. Let every political leaders rise above party politics and honor the party with selfless efforts. Let every youth join together and build a better ,prosperous nation. There are millions of wishes for the betterment of my nation and another wish that this wish gets fulfilled.